Thursday, April 30, 2009

Scared Spitless

So, I am scared spitless right now. I haven't even looked at my grades yet. I've put it off until I was able to finish a few other big projects, but now I must look and see. Three or four of the classes did not post scores up on blackboard, and I wax worried, because I never can tell how I did. I know I've got an A on a few...but the other ones can spring up outta nowhere and eat your offspring if you're not careful. I ramble...

Goodnight everyone. I hope someday to be chill about life.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

New Pleasing People

So, I've decided that The Weepies, the Indie band extraordinaire, is now on my list of pleasing people whose coolness I would like to emulate, and whose talents I love to adore.

To the right you can hear their song "I've gotta have you."

You shall be as in love as I.

Also, I hiked all over Zion National Park with 8 of the coolest people I have ever met...and I had awesome adventures.

I shan't speak of it now, as I am tired, and on my way to a late night gym touch-and-go.

I just thought I like to say I love you all.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

The Middle of Freaking April!

Three Things I wish I could do.

I often suffer from a lack of self-expression outlets. Here are three things I honestly wish I could do.

Sing-like really sing. Sing the songs I love, belting them high and loud so that they sound great. I wish I could display my passions, particularly my religious ones (I really like "come thou fount" and "press forward saints", and "Oh my father" to the tune of "come thou fount"...and "truth reflects upon our senses"). So yes, I really wish I could sing.

Write Plays- Every time I see a moving play, I always think...I have so many great ideas...I wish I could write a play about it. Nothing reaches the heart like theater. Maybe I'll take a play-writing class...just to develope the skill..not that I'd ever be great, but it would a prime outlet for a Megan.

Express Myself well verbally- So many awesome, flawless much stupid mouth. If only I had the gift of persuassion...oh the things I'd persuade. Bwahahaha.

Sunday, April 12, 2009


Three Rules of Work: Out of clutter find simplicity; From discord find harmony; In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity.
-Albert Einstein

So, I've been thinking about simplicity, and how my life doesn't really have it anymore...and how I want it so badly. Not that I would ever change the growth I've had during the complicated times, but I wish things would be simple again. How simple? It's an interesting question. Since the simplicity I knew before became so painfully complex because it was flawed, then the simplicity I want now is not the same.

It's a simplicity that I have to find and create on my own. Maybe that's what growing up is? Simplicity followed by complication then a battle back to a new, better, simplicity, which then becomes complicated. Lather, rinse, repeat.

Perhaps that is what Christ did, from a God, in all his glorious, perfect simplicity, to a man in this complicated world, to a glorious simple Godhood, greater because of the complications it overcame.

Humor is simplicity, solution is simplicity. I intersperse my complicated life with simple thoughts, laughs, songs and dances. The longer I live I find that simplicity is rest, and complication is work, and the juxtaposition is what we call joy.

Thursday, April 9, 2009


"Will you feel better, better, better?"
Regina Spektor

Yes.  Yes I will Regina.

Apparently the teacher has already gotten complaints, and the grades have been improved.  Not great....but a little bit better.

Situation Improved.

Not perfect, but improved.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009



What am I gonna do?

Monday, April 6, 2009

The Quorum

I hope others saw the massive type-o in the Daily Universe.

This morning, if you got the paper, in bold lettering, on the front page, beneath a picture of the 12 was the most fabulous front page hilarity of all time...

"The Quorum of the Twelve Apostates"

I kid you not.

They had to pull all the papers and replaced them by the afternoon...but man...I've seen the originals.

Some times we silly mortals make me smile.

All Nighter.

"It don't really matter. When life gets that much harder, it makes you that much stronger."
-Carrie Underwood


Now, while it is often said that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I dunno. I tend to think that what doesn't kill you makes it much more likely that you'll die sooner. Ejemplo-

Person: *BANG* Ha! I shot you! If you live through this...just think of how strong you'll be!

*Two months later...standing by the victim, being sustained by an iron lung*

Person: Well...Hm. I wonder why that didn't work.

I've had more papers assigned than I can currently handle...and I'd like to say that I've procrastinated....but I haven't . I've been doing my assignments with all the time that has been available. That time would be....*looks at calender* This evening actually.

Now, we shall either see a disaster or a miracle. Will the Megan overcome the odds, and strained emotions (Mind: "Oh! Nobody LIKES ME!" Brain:"Oh, shut up. Dramaqueen.") and finish so many papers and a large presentation due tomorrow? Tune in next time.

Also...the guy ahead of me in line bought the last Passover ticket. I am now on the waiting list.

Don't worry. So far, nothing has killed me. :D

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Thought provoking link of the day.

Today's thought provoking link of the day is from ZD. Below.

See...being a weirdo like me is beneficial!

"I'm so glad that I'll never fit in. That will never be me."

For your reading pleasure I offer this interesting scientific discovery from BYU.

No wait....since I know none of you will click on the link...I will break Blog-iquette by just copy-pasting it here. Click on the link too, for good there are some pretty fantastic pictures..and the site might track its hits. So be nice.

News Release
Hire a Dwight Schrute for a better-performing team, prof

Nobody wants to share a cubicle with a new hire like Dwight Schrute. The beet-farming volunteer sheriff's deputy/paper salesman creates many awkward moments because of his differences with co-workers on NBC's "The Office."
But according to new research co-authored by a Brigham Young University business professor, better decisions come from teams that include a "socially distinct newcomer." That's psychology-speak for someone who is different enough to bump other team members out of their comfort zones.

Researchers noticed this effect after conducting a traditional group problem-solving experiment. The twist was that a newcomer was added to each group about five minutes into their deliberations. And when the newcomer was a social outsider, teams were more likely to solve the problem successfully.

The research is published in the Personality and Social Psychology Bulletin.
"One of the most-cited benefits of diversity is the infusion of new ideas and perspectives," said study co-author Katie Liljenquist, assistant professor of organizational leadership at BYU's Marriott School of Management. "And while that very often is true, we found the mere presence of a newcomer who is socially distinct can really shake up the group dynamic. That leads to discomfort, but also to a better process that ultimately yields superior outcomes."
The key factor is simply whether newcomers are distinct in some way from the other group members.

"Remember, socially 'distinct' doesn't necessarily mean socially 'inept,'" says Liljenquist, whose co-authors on the paper are Katherine Phillips of Northwestern's Kellogg School of Management and Margaret Neale of Stanford's Graduate School of Business. "Dwight's upbringing and past work history - in addition to his bobblehead doll collection - all contribute to the measure of diversity he brings to 'The Office' melting pot."

The paper adds a new wrinkle to the wealth of research on teams, says Melissa Thomas-Hunt, associate professor at Cornell's Johnson School of Management.

"[This research] is groundbreaking in that it highlights that the benefits of disparate knowledge in a team can be unleashed when newcomers actually share opinions of knowledge with old-timers but are socially different," Thomas-Hunt says. "It is the tension between social dissimilarity and opinion similarity that prompts heightened effectiveness in diverse teams."
What explains the results?

According to Liljenquist, newcomers in the experiment didn't necessarily ask tougher questions, possess novel information, or doggedly maintain a conflicting point of view. Just being there was enough to change the dynamic among old-timers who shared a common identity.
When a member of the group discovered that he agreed with the new outsider, he felt alienated from his fellow old-timers - consequently, he was very motivated to explain his point of view on its merits so that his peers wouldn't lump him in with the outsider.
The person who found himself disagreeing with the in-group - and instead agreeing with an outsider - felt very uncomfortable. An opinion alliance with an outsider put his social ties with other team members at risk.

"Socially, that can be very threatening," Liljenquist says. "These folks are driven to say, 'Wait, the fact that I disagree with this outsider doesn't make me weird. Something more is going on here; let's figure out what's at the root of our disagreement.' The group then tends to analyze differing opinions and critical information much more thoroughly, and that facilitates much better decision-making results."

Another revelation

The experiment also revealed a fallacy in the assumptions we make about our own effectiveness in groups. The subjects in the experiment were members of different fraternities and sororities. In general, when the newcomer was from the same sorority or fraternity as the other team members, the group reported that it worked well together, but was less likely to correctly solve the problem.

In contrast, when the newcomer was a member of a rival sorority or fraternity, the opposite was true - these groups felt they worked together less effectively, yet they significantly outperformed socially homogenous groups.

"What's really distinct about this research is that, from a self-reporting perspective, what people perceive to be beneficial turns out to be dead wrong," Liljenquist says. "The teams that felt they worked least effectively together were ironically the top performers!"

In the workplace

Common "social distinctions" in today's workplace, Liljenquist says, would include:
• One employee from accounting working on a team in which everyone else is from sales
• An employee of a company that had just been bought out finding herself on a team of people from the acquiring firm

• An out-of-stater finding himself on a team full of natives of the company's home state
To help employees in those situations cope, managers would be wise to explain that such conflict can actually generate better results.

"Without that information people just assume, 'This is really uncomfortable. My team obviously must not be working effectively,'" Liljenquist says. "The experience in diverse teams may not always be a feel-good session, but if employees know that from the outset, they can better deal with inevitable conflicts and recognize the potential benefits - that the affective pains can translate to real performance gains."

Although Liljenquist acknowledges many other cases for diversity in the workplace, she contends that "reaping the benefits of diverse workgroups doesn't necessarily require that newcomers bring unique perspectives or expertise to the table. Simply having people around us who differ on some dimension ¬- whether it is functional background, education, race or even a different fraternity - drives a very different decision-making process at a group level because of the social and emotional conflict we experience in their presence."

Friday, April 3, 2009

Say what you need to say.

"You better know that in the end, it's better to say too much, than never to say what you need to say again."
-John Mayer

Now, I am a Megan of the thinking variety. However, if I had a nickel for every minute of the past few years I sat, crippled by fear and anxiety, when I should have been sharing an important, relevant thought and opinion of my own...I would go diving in them like Scrooge McDuck.

Usually, the thoughts can't be shortened into one sentence pithy statements. They are often very personal. They often need to be said to people who are close to me.
And writing all my thoughts on my various blogs is both tedious and scarey.

Then again, we had a whole lesson in Sunday School about not being afraid to say what you need to say. I shouldn't be so afraid...should I?

Actually yes I should...but that's called bravery Megan...bravery.

Hey Look...Megan can objectivfy people too!

Ok....I have a confession to make. I find these men strikingly handsome. There...I said it.

So,here is the guy on the Katy Perry Video. I also think that he is on "Kyle XY". He is incredibly good looking. Like...seriously. This is not to say that other people can't be good looking without looking like him...for current interest (how are ya?) but since we of the female gender have been recently accused of having low hormonal drives...I just thought I'd prove you wrong...*looks at all three videos again*...ya..very very wrong.

and the guy on beyonce's video...

and the lead singer of the All American Rejects as seen here (Language warning...but just look at this music video there are two of him.) Yaaaaaaa.

Thursday, April 2, 2009


Internship in DC this summer on Literacy.
Take classes to finish my minor and flex courses.
This summer could go two different ways. I'll have to consult the oracle.